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I watched him watch the football match on the TV screen. Even before he said
a word it was instantly clear to me that he was Italian (his shoes shone and
he was wearing a pink shirt with a confidence that eludes English blokes)
besides he had a unique energy and appetite that seemed to ricochet through
the bar and then ping right into my being. I watched as he cheered his team
when they made a decent pass, as he pulled at his hair when they let a goal
slip through, as he hugged his friend with delightful, firm enthusiasm when
his team equalised - and I was mesmerised.
The excitable and exciting stranger seemed
to sense I was watching him. He turned and caught me undressing him with my
eyes. I wondered whether he knew I was projecting way past the first carnal
encounter, down the aisle and straight into the maternity hospital. I was
defenceless; his deep, dark eyes stripped me of any ability I had to feign
indifference. I fought my instinct to reach out and stroke his glorious
bronzed skin. I wanted to run my hands over his well defined and athletic
body. Whilst not especially tall everything about his presence seems
purposeful and powerful. His being in the bar made me feel strangely safe
and excited all at once.
He pulled him self away from watching the
football and came over to where I was stood behind the bar. Alison would
probably have described him as swaggering, I saw a saunter. He leaned close
enough for his citrus cologne to drift into my consciousness.
‘I take a beer and, you too, if you are
available,’ he said. He held my eye despite my best intention of dragging my
gaze away from his, I found I could not. Did he mean he wanted to buy me a
beer? Did he mean he wanted to take me somewhere? Could he mean he wanted to
take me sexually? Could he possibly be being to brazen? I hoped so.
‘Where would you take me?’ I asked
choosing to understand his comment to mean more than an offer of a beer.
‘Wherever you want. To a restaurant. To a
movie. To a new sort of ecstasy.’
He dropped the last suggestion with
indecent aplomb and waited for my response with a cool confidence. I should
have been offended or outraged. At the very least I should have pretended
to be one of those things, instead I offered my phone number.
‘No. I won’t take your number,’ he said
firmly.
‘You won’t?’ Suddenly I was embarrassed.
Had I got it completely wrong? Had I miss-heard him? Had I imagined the
chemistry which was zinging between the two of us? Had the lethal dart of
attraction just struck me?
‘I wait here with you until your shift is
finished.’
‘But that’s five more hours.’ I objected
gently, grinning not trying to hide my amusement.
‘I have forever. I know you are worth the
wait. If you give me a number, I call, you might have met another man by
that time. I can’t risk it. Rather I wait for you. I must not let this go. I
sense it is important.’
I had heard similar before. Italians are
prone to this sort of impassioned announcement – it’s one of the things I
like about them. But I had never felt such chemistry before. Roberto’s
presence made my throat dry. He’d detonated a
bomb of unprecedented excitement. I felt sparkling shafts of exhilaration
shoot and spread through my body. Lust lodged in my skull. Desire
drenched my innards. Longing shuddered down every nerve in every limb.
The bar rapidly receded. I didn’t care if
there were customers to serve or crisps to fetch from the store room.
Suddenly there was only me and this Italian man, everything other was a
dull, sludgy irrelevance.
We cleaved to one another for the
following five hours. By turn we chatted, laughed and silently stared at one
another. He told me that his love of fast cars and football. He introduced
two or three of his pals but I could barely harness their names to my memory
as he was all consuming and everything other was less. He told me that he’d
only been living in England a week but already had an interview for a job in
an advertising agency in Soho.
‘And your family?’ I probed.
‘My family have a business in the wine
trade,’ he said simply; then he sipped his beer in a manner which suggested
he found the turn in the conversation difficult.
‘A vineyard, how amazing.’ I imagined rows
of green vine things, like soldiers in the sunshine.
He shrugged. ‘Not really. Quite normal.’
I could not comprehend how he could
describe running a vineyard as normal. It must be the most romantic thing in
the world. I assumed he was attempting to be modest. I wondered if they
still crushed grapes by stamping in them. Probably not, some European
regulation doubtless prevents it but maybe they still celebrated festivals
by producing wine through the traditional methods. The Italians are big on
festivals. Not that I was sure that I’d actually want to feel grapes ooze
through my toes. I’m not really that earthy. Worse yet, someone else’s toes.
Yuk. It’s enough to send you teetotal.
He sighed. ‘Actually, I have come to
England after terrible argues with my family. I need to prove myself. Make
career here.’ I admired his independent spirit and didn’t need to ask for
any detail on the nature of the arguments as he added, ‘Sometimes families
are stifling. I need to be away from my family for a time. You understand?’
I nodded enthusiastically. Yes, yes I understood. I understood everything
about this man. ‘I think you really do,’ he said with a gravely voice that
shook with sincerity.
A sincerity that transcended all that had
gone before.
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