A slow-burn love story between a deb and a playwright that builds to a tear jerking climax. Adele Parks’ best book yet
— Good Housekeeping
Charts the impossible love affair between unhappily married Vivian and handsome playwright Howard, a conscientious objector. Beautifully and surprisingly gritty
— Red Magazine

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If You Go Away

1914. Vivian, a young, impassioned debutante is hurried into a pedestrian marriage to cover a scandal. War breaks out on her wedding day - domestically and across Europe. Quick to escape the disappointment of matrimony, her traditionalist husband immediately enlists and Vivian has no alternative than to take up the management and running of his estate - after all, everyone is required to do their bit. Even pretty, inadequately-educated young wives.

Howard, a brilliant young playwright rushes to the front to see for himself the best and the worst of humanity; he cannot imagine what the horror might be. In March 1916, when conscription becomes law, it is no longer enough for him to report on the War, it's a legal requirement that he joins the ranks. Howard refuses, becoming one of the most notorious conscientious objectors of the time. Disarmingly handsome, famous, articulate and informed, he's a threat to the government. Narrowly escaping a death sentence by agreeing to take essential work on Vivian's farm, it's only then Howard understands what is worth fighting for.

Epic, romantic, devastating and overflowing with emotion and authenticity, this is an absolutely stunning novel that will totally sweep you up in to its world.
— Heat
I adored it for the depth of research behind the historical detail, the pacey narrative with its alternating viewpoints and the wonderfully vivid and believable characterisation. Reading this is a real emotional treat.
— Daily Mail